I'm Not Dead, I Swear

I am SO sorry, guys. I have really been sucking lately, in writing and reading. I just have not felt particularly inspired or inspiring. I have just been stagnant lately in my weight, and I haven't felt like I have anything to write about that would help any of you guys out. I don't know what my weight is now, but when I left my apartment at school to come home on Wednesday, after finishing painting my room with my roomie, T, I saw 126lbs. on the scale. Like, seriously?? I haven't seen that number in months. T eats SO much. I guess I never realized before how much she eats, because she isn't home much during school, but we were together for a whole week basically, doing my room and one wall in our living room, and she cooked dinner for the both of us every night. I can't believe I gained three pounds while doing that. I suck. I don't have a scale at home, so I don't have any way to know how much I weigh. I think I am going to take rain's suggestion and get a measuring tape so I can at least measure myself so I know if I am gaining or losing inches/centimeters, depending on how I decide to measure. Probably cm. More precise.

Last night, I was watching Say Yes to the Dress, and my parents were in the living room. There was this woman who was coming in for her first dress fitting, and the dress wouldn't zip up in the back by about an inch. She was very skinny, and was FREAKING OUT in the fitting room because the gown wouldn't zip all the way. She was screaming "Oh my God, I can't believe I gained like 20 pounds! This is horrible! I look SO fat!" And on and on and on. I felt for her. My mom was like "Oh my, that girl has a serious problem" and my dad said "Yeah, she is anorexic. This will be a great way for her to anorexic some more." I felt so awkward at that moment. This poor girl was probably already stressed out of her mind with her wedding planning, and now her gown doesn't fit? I would be freaking out too! Especially because it was too small! My parents like to say things like this when we are watching things on TV and some girl is really skinny. I don't know if it's for my benefit or something, but it's so anxiety-provoking for me.

I have some motivation to get my weight loss going again, though, so that's a good thing. At one of the weddings I am going to this summer with one of my friends, I am being set up with a friend of the groom. I don't know the groom, and my friend doesn't know my mystery suitor, but she and the groom are friends, and they decided that they would set the two of us up, since we are both single. The guy is a doctor, so this could be exciting! I need to look extra good, and right now, I am not looking good. Definitely need to lose about 15 pounds or so. Time to get to work! The wedding is in a month, July 10th. I can definitely get there if I just buckle down and make this happen.

I am going to be doing a little traveling in a few days, to Washington D.C. to visit some vet clinics in the area. I am staying with one of my friends, who will be at work most of the time I am there, so I won't have to eat much. And my plan for if and when I have to eat at the clinics or if someone asks me if I want some food, is to say I have an allergy to gluten, so I can't eat most processed foods. That way, no one will try to force things like cookies on me, and I won't feel rude in saying No, thanks. Food like that is always hanging around vet clinics, because the owners make thank you baskets for fixing their animals.

So now, for the room pics!

Before; The pictures do not do the wallpaper justice, the wallpaper looks like "water damage pattern", like water ran down the walls and stained it or something. Butt ugly.
Before; Note the disgusting fruit border

After!

After!

I am SO happy that fruit border is gone! It feels finally like my room, instead of a room I live in :) It is finally my style, and is somewhere I can go to and relax and feel calm and happy. I am in love with it!

And for one last tidbit for everyone. If Lindsay Lohan can be fat, so can I! She must be laying off the cocaine or something.

June 2010

June 2009

Yikes, girl! I know she is supposed to be getting healthy, but whatever she is doing is not helping her in the looks department! She fluctuates in her weight more than any other celeb I can think of. Poor girl.

Well, now it's time to do some serious blog reading.

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile