This May Be the Most Random Post of All Time

Yeah..... So first off, my absence. One of my cousins, who is more like my sister, really, is dealing with the divorce of her parents. They divorced two years ago, and since then, things have been nothing but nasty between her and father. There have been many fights and some even led to the police being called. Like, serious stuff. They both have no respect for eachother, and neither side is innocent here. A few months ago, my uncle basically cut off my cousin, and stopped supporting her financially. He stopped her health care, her cell phone, and the payments for her college. It put everything on her and my aunt, but they actually preferred it that way, because they didn't want to deal with my uncle anymore. She got a new cell phone, and out of our family, only gave me the number, because the rest of our side of the family (with the exception of my parents) were calling her and harrassing her. Totally uncalled for, and I respected her wish that I not give out her number to anyone.

So last week, it was her 21st birthday. Who do I get a call from but my uncle, asking for my cousin's number. I told him I would rather ask my cousin if she wanted it given to him first, but he was really pressuring me into giving it to him, and he actually sounded like he was getting mad. I didn't know what to do, and I was feeling very confused, so I just ended up giving him the number. I immediately called my cousin to tell her what happened, and I was so worried that she would be mad at me, but she completely understood. She told me that he manipulates and intimidates people, and he used his status as my uncle and my elder to get me to give him the number. She thanked me for letting her know, so she would be prepared for when he called, and apologized for her dad calling me. When he called, things got out of hand, and he was threatening her, and she called me so scared because her mom was out of town, and even though she was pretty sure that my uncle does not know where she and her mom live, she was still scared that he would come over. I ended up driving to the city she lives in, and staying with her for four days until her mom got back. I didn't even have my laptop or anything, because I just threw some stuff in a bag and left to get to her quickly. It was rough.

Then I went home, and my family had a bunch of Memorial Day weekend parties we had been invited to, so I was busy with going to those. One thing I have learned for sure while at home is that my family needs to eat dinner earlier! Not one night while I was home did we eat before 8:30pm. My first night home, we didn't eat until 10pm! I was literally dying. Luckily my family eats healthy, so most nights it was something like broiled salmon or other fish, or grilled chicken, and some sort of veggies, and we only have water with dinner, so it's not like the calories were horrific. But just eating so late at night completely threw me off, and I hated going to bed so soon after eating, because I felt like the food was just sitting there all night. It also threw off my digestive system, so I didn't "go" for about three days. My mom doesn't keep a scale in the house, either, so I couldn't even keep track of how much I weighed.

I am back at my apartment now, but not for long. I am here to paint my room with T (Yay! It's so ugly, I swear. I will post before and after pictures of my room so you guys can all see!) but then I am going back on the 9th of June for my brother's high school graduation, and I won't be coming back to my apartment until school starts again in August. For the summer, I will be at home and also traveling around the east coast of the US, visiting vet clinics to see if they are places I would like to intern at once I graduate vet school. So still without a scale then too! I am going to be so scale-less this summer and it SUCKS! I am super-dependent on my scale, and summers are the worst because I don't have my scale.

I was listening to the radio today on my drive back, and the Black Eyed Peas song "Rock That Body" has the lyrics: You could be the model type, Skinny with no appetite I liked that line a lot :) Random.

My first real love got married on Sunday to his high school sweetheart. He was actually a huge ass, because he led me on for two years in college, all the while still having a long distance relationship with his girlfriend whom he had been with since they were both 16. You can't help who you fall for, and even after I found out about her, I was so far gone head over heels for him, that I honestly though he would leave her for me. I even MET the girl, numerous times, and became "frenemies" with her, and we are friends on Facebook, and I still harbored the hope that he would leave her for me. Obviously, that didn't work out, because they got married on Sunday, and I am single. She posted pictures of the wedding on Facebook, and I have been torturing myself by looking at them daily. Oh Facebook, I love how you make it so easy to bring that pain back in a matter of seconds. It's so great. The only thing that makes me feel even a smidge better is that I was and still am prettier, skinnier, and taller than his girlfriend/now-wife. And I made sure she knew it ;) I told you we were frenemies. So yeah, I've been listening to emo music for the past few days. And then today on my way back, I stopped at Sephora and the MAC and Chanel counters at Macy's for some makeup to make me feel better. I did some major damage, but it was a lot of fun and made me feel immensely better!

I also got the Blogger Music award thingy from Sunflowerrr! Thanks so much, girlie! Love you :) I will make sure to give out my awards the next post. This one is getting far too long to write anything else!

One more thing I wanted to include. I stumbled across this montage of Karlie Kloss the other day on YouTube, and whenever I want to eat something, I think of this. Karlie is everything I want to be, and thinking of how perfect she looks, it helps me to not eat :) Enjoy!



Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile