Count Down to Skinny Challenge and a New Dress

So today I am doing a liquids-only fast that Isobel came up with! It is called the Count Down to Skinny Challenge. The rules are that all liquids are okay, including things like smoothies and non-chunky soups; if you feel faint or weak, eat something of the fruit or veggie variety; and the fast goes for 48 hours. It officially started at 12am this morning, but unofficially mine started at 10:30pm last night because I was going to bed. I am also going a little longer than 48 hours, because I don't eat past 8pm at night so my first solid food will be breakfast at 8am Monday morning (if you call yogurt solid food). I am allowing myself soup for dinner, which I need to go out and buy after I am done writing this, since I have none in the house. This is a better fast for me instead of juice-only or water-only, because it will still look to my roommates that I am having something to eat, and I can allow myself a large portion of soup, too, since I won't be taking in that many calories otherwise today.

I am very excited for this fast, because I really need it! I was down to 123.9lbs. on Thursday, and I was so happy, because that put my BMI at exactly 20.0, which is an exciting number, and I was planning on that being the last time that it was ever in the 20's again. However, Friday morning I woke up to 125.2lbs. somehow. I think because I hadn't gone poo at all Thursday, and then I didn't have to go before I weighed on Friday, so it was most likely food/poo weight, but I still hated seeing that number. I was already feeling a little down because of that, and then it went downhill when my friend made me a baked apple for lunch. I then binged yesterday for the first time in ages, and it was mostly healthy stuff, besides a Reese's PB cup, but the amount of food was gross, and it made me feel really sick and tired, and I can't believe I did it. I didn't weigh myself this morning, because I don't want to ruin my resolve today, and I wanted to keep my upbeat, excited about fasting feeling that I have going on right now. I hate binging so much; it never makes me feel good or happy even when I am in the process of eating, and afterwards it makes me feel even worse. I never want to do that again. Yuck. The only good thing is that I took a gigantic poo this morning (sorry TMI!) and I have a feeling that I will be having more today. I am sure that this liquid fast will help me get back to 123.9 or lower, and be out of the 20 BMI range for good :)

I bought a dress yesterday from J.Crew for our winter auction fundraiser at the vet school. It's in December, and is a formal event, so all the women get dressed up and glamorous, and the guys all wear suits. I wasn't sure of what I was going to wear, since most of my nice dresses are more spring-y and summery, and I've worn my little black to one of these auctions already. Then I found this dress online for 30% off final sale, making it only $35 for a 100% silk dress! For some reason, I can't get this to save as a JPEG to my computer, so I will just post a link and you can check it out if you want: J.Crew dress I got it in the color warm fig.

I got it in a size 0, which right now will be a little too small, but once I am solidly 118lbs. or so, it will fit nicely. Obviously I am planning on being thinner than that by December, but I know that I am not out of line by ordering it in a 0, since I know without a doubt that I will be able to slip into it in a short amount of time. I am so determined, you have no idea. I love the feeling of losing weight, and being in control, and being empty, and lately I can just feel my resolve strengthening to crazy levels.

Anyway, if anyone wants to join in the fast, head over to Isobel's blog and let her know! I hope your weekends are all fantastic :)

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile