That Was a Horrible Mistake

I am so tired right now, and it's hardly nine o'clock.

Last night, our upstairs neighbors had a little vet school cocktail party thing, and it was a pot-luck, so everyone was supposed to bring a dish. I brought tortilla chips and guacamole, so gluten-free and non-binge inducing for me. Perfect dish. T made zucchini bread and K made brownies, so I wasn't tempted because I knew I couldn't have them. Awesome! Anyway, most of the food was stuff that I couldn't eat, or wasn't sure about so I just avoided. I had some of my chips and guacamole. There was this other dip which had beans, corn, olive oil, and some other seasonings in it, and another girl had brought figs stuffed with some kind of cheese and mint, and wrapped in pancetta, an Italian bacon. I had a little of the bean/corn dip, and one of the figs. No big deal, I figured. It looked good to K, seeing me eat all that I did, and I hadn't eaten much else for the day, so I didn't mind too much. My plan was just to restrict a lot today to make up for it.

Well, my body had other ideas. Something I ate obviously had gluten in it, because I woke up multiple times throughout the night (hence why I am tired) with the worst GI upset EVER. I had diarrhea multiple times, and vomited once or twice, I don't even remember any more. I was bloated and my stomach was gurgling horribly, and the pain was awful. My doctor did tell me that once starting a gluten free diet, I could be much more sensitive to gluten if I accidentally ingested it, but I never thought it would be this bad! I wish I knew what it was that set me off, but I doubt I will ever find out. What this tells me is that unless I know for sure something is made gluten-free, or I was the one who made it, or it is obviously gluten-free, like fruit/vegetables, I should just avoid it.

This makes it a lot easier to grill people on what is in the food they made. Mua ha ha ha ;) I definitely do not want to go through that pain again. I skipped my first class this morning because I still felt like I was going to vomit, and I have not had much to eat today. I ended up having a banana around lunch time, and a mini-Gatorade because I was feeling really dehydrated. Then at dinner I had one ear of corn on the cob, and some cashews. I also had a handful of candy corn during one of our lectures this afternoon, but only a few pieces. My whole GI tract is still a little unsettled by the whole ordeal of last night, though. I hope it rights itself, soon.

I am going to the state fair with my friends on Sunday! I always love going to look at all the livestock. It's my favorite part :) And now I can't be tempted by any fried foods, because I would definitely have an unhappy tummy after that!

And this weekend is the weekend I have to myself, since both T and K are going away for the long weekend :) This needs to be an epic weekend for restriction (Yes, I decided against fasting. I never get the results I want out of it, and restricting makes me feel more in control and still keeps my metabolism going, too.) K asked me this evening if all I was having was the corn for dinner. I wanted to ask her, Really? You're going to ask me that when I was up half the night puking and crapping my brains out?? But I just smiled and said "For now. I am so excited about my corn!" And then I kept raving about how good it was, and how I could eat two more ears and that I wish I had bought more. And then I pulled out the cashews and ate a few in front of her for good measure. So as always, I need to be sneaky around her, since I think she always has her radar up for my eating habits. I do NOT need a mother out of her, but whatever. So this weekend I will be free to eat as little as I please without so much as an eyebrow raise out of her. Big sigh of relief!

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile