I Want....

Things I want to do, but cannot right now because I feel too fat, too ugly, too uncoordinated, too plain, too average:

• yoga
• get my hair cut to chin-length
• buy this amazing bra and pantie set that would look so sexy, if only I felt good about myself

I take up too much.... everything. I need to reach 115lbs. again before I allow myself to do any of those things.

Today has been pretty good, food-wise. I broke down a little this afternoon, and had too many gummy candies, but other than that, I stuck to the plan for what I wanted to eat today. Tomorrow will be better, because I won't eat the candies. I am feeling good and hungry right now, so I feel successful. Validation for a day's hard work. Well, you know, minus the candy slip-up.

I read this article the other day about true hunger versus false hunger. It was pretty interesting.

True Hunger

• Appears at regular times
• Appears at least four hours after previous meal
• All healthy foods sound satisfying
• There has been at least one bowel movement in the morning
• You crave unrefined, whole foods
• Sweet craving is satisfied by rice, sweet potato or dates

False Hunger

• Appears at irregular times
• Appears shortly after eating
• Only specific foods sound satisfying
• There is constipation, diarrhea, gas or bloating
• You crave refined, highly sweetened foods
• Your hunger is due to emotional state and/or fatigue

One of my favorite parts was this: "The first thing to do is pay attention. Learn about yourself. Tomorrow when you’re on your lunch break, ask yourself if you’re truly hungry. We usually eat when our day planners tell us to, not when our bodies tell us to. If you’re not hungry, wait until you are. If your schedule doesn’t permit an alternate time to eat at work, eat lightly or wait until dinner. Our culture frowns upon skipping meals because we believe that we need to consume food to have energy and to be productive. In fact, the opposite is true when you eat food you’re not hungry for: It causes fatigue. Productivity in office environments often goes way down after lunch because poor digestion leads to lethargy and a feeling of heaviness."

I just thought it was so interesting, and true! I always get drowsy whenever I eat when I'm not truly hungry. I want all of my friends to read this somehow, so when I am skipping a meal because I am legitimately and honestly not hungry, they won't look on in horror and shock.

Alright, bed time for this girl!

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile