Life has gotten away from me, I'm sorry. I hate when I inadvertently take these little breaks from Blogger, because I feel like I am missing so much. I just don't have enough time in the day!
I performed my third spay ever on Tuesday, and it went spectacularly! The attending surgeon told me my sutures bordered on perfection :) I love doing surgery; I have definitely decided that I want to be a surgeon. I just feel so calm and collected when I'm doing surgery. Last week, when I did anesthesia, I felt like I was going to barf, I was so nervous!
I have been feeling really fat and ugly lately, and I am so sick of it. I just want to feel pretty again! I felt so pretty when I was really skinny, and I just feel like a mess right now. It's horrible. But that's enough complaining, because I don't like to be a downer. I really try to make my blog a happy one :) So I am going to get my act together. I would like to lose ten pounds by Thanksgiving, and I am pretty sure I can do it. I used to be able to lose weight so fast, so I know I am good at it if I just get the right mindset. I can do this!
By the way, Portia de Rossi just wrote a new book about her battle with anorexia. I am thinking of buying it, and I was wondering if anyone had gotten it yet to tell me how it is? I picked up the issue of People Magazine with her on the cover, talking about her book and her ED, and the book excerpt in it was pretty interesting. I hope it's good!
Also, my roommate K kept her spay cat, and she is really cute and everything, but she has diarrhea. K has been keeping her in the bathroom when we leave, so she gets litter and poop all over the floor. Fantastic. K seems to think she is doing a good job in cleaning up the floor every day, but there is still litter and dried shit on the floor after she "cleans" it. It's not my responsibility to clean up after her cat, but it's getting to the point where I don't want to take a shower because the floor is so gross. I mentioned the subject yesterday, and K just said that she does clean the floor everyday. Her idea of clean and my idea of clean are two totally different things. I think tomorrow I am going to deep clean the bathroom while she is at work, and hopefully she will realize that she hasn't really been keeping it all that clean.
Love you, Skinnies!
~Sottile
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So I love you. :)
ReplyDeleteI was looking at that exact people magazine, and I was trying to remember the name. :D
You can definitely lose that by thanksgiving. I know how that is to take a break from blogger like that, but it makes a huge difference in how I eat. just with the extra motivation. Let's both try to read and post more! <3 You can do it. Just keep doing well.
Stay Superstrong <3
-Molly
ahh i totally sympathize with the roommate thing, i always clean everything because my roommates basically think the presence of crumbs/dust/stains are clean enough :p i've been hearing a lot about portia's book lately too, so far i've only been hearing good things :) good luck with your thanksgiving goal, i know these holiday's can make us all quite anxious!
ReplyDeletehaha i love how we're all so OCD - lol.
ReplyDeletecongrats hun on being so successful!! :P
"I felt so pretty when I was really skinny, and I just feel like a mess right now. It's horrible." - omg ditto. that is EXACTLY how i feel right now.
we can get through this!
<3 <3 <3
Stinks about your roommate--I had the same issues when I was living with 3 guys in college. Their version of clean was definitely a long way from my version...
ReplyDeleteThat's so exciting, you did your third spay! I can't believe you're doing surgery, that's really impressive! I've never known anyone who could actually perform surgery. :D
xoxo
Glad to see that you're back and posting again! And it's great that you did so well with the spay!- Jessica
ReplyDelete"Yes, if people say that it doesn't matter what the scale says, why can't we all be a bit skinny like we want to?? I couldn't have said it better. I may actually use that the next time someone makes a comment about weight to me ;) Stay strong! xoxo"
ReplyDeleteNo, you don't seem to understand. I -want- to be rid of this disorder. In no way do I support thoughts provoked by a parasitic mental disease.
that cover made me want to get the book too.... she is gorgeous and still uber skinny.
ReplyDeleteschool and an ed and life can be crazy busy.... just think positively and you will get to where you want to be
<3
p.s. - i am going to follow your blog now...
check mine out : http://when-it-begins-again.blogspot.com/
Wow...surgery? That's insane! How cool though, I'd love to sit in on one! Plus it may have desired dampening of my appetite the rest of the day! LOL
ReplyDeleteI'm really intrigued about Portia's book too. I'm a total sucker for ED books! I'm probably gonna buy it. I'll. Be one of the firsttl to read it. I need to finish knitting my scarf first...I can only have one project going at a time.
Your right, the one nice thing about effing up my weekend so bad is that I know I will try extra-super hard this week, starting today with a water/coffee/tea fast. Hopefully the scale will be forgiving of my sins!!
P.S. you're an animal surgeon now, be creative...sew your roommate's cat's butthole shut. LOL!!
Xoxo
I would highly recommend Portia's book, Unbearable Lightness. I've read it twice, highlighted, and lent it to 2 friends already since I got my copy! It's right up there with Wasted for me as a realistic first-person book about eating disorders.
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