My Wins

I'm so happy that so many people liked my post and found it inspiring! You girls are all so wonderful and amazing :)

I didn't write last night like I said I would, because our upstairs neighbors had their annual Christmas party, and when my roommates and I got back, it was 11pm and I was very tired! I just ended up going to bed.

So, as promised, I kept a tally of my wins from yesterday. I was wearing a hoodie with one of those pockets in the front, so I kept my "Win" paper in it. It was kind of fun carrying it around with me all day!

1. Not eating before noon
2. Not having a mini candy bar when I got back from the mall (K has a communal candy dish on our living room bookshelf)
3. Throwing out a box of cherry cordials that someone bought for me
4. Having a non-fat latte instead of the mocha at Starbucks (mochas have waaaaayyy more calories)
5. Not grabbing a handful of chocolate and butterscotch chips when I opened the tea cupboard and they were sitting right next to all the boxes of tea
6. I noticed I was hungry at 2:16pm and I didn't eat anything until 5:52pm
7. Only having two glasses of wine and a few M&Ms at the party last night

I think I am going to continue my win tally today as well. It's actually a lot of fun! It felt so good to not eat much of anything at the party last night, and just watch others stuff their faces. I also didn't know a lot of people there, which made it a lot easier to not eat. I hate eating around strangers; I get quite self-conscious that everyone is looking at me and judging me for what I am eating. I overheard this one girl say that she had eaten a light dinner in preparation for the party. I wanted to tell her that I had only eaten a few cubes of cheese for dinner, and that I still wasn't going to eat anything at the party, but of course I didn't.

Tonight is another party that is semi-holiday and semi-birthday, and this one is being thrown by friends, and I will know everyone there. This will make it a lot harder to control my eating, but I am going to bring my win tally with me, and hopefully carrying it around will make me feel stronger. In high school, I used to write on a piece of scrap paper every day "You will not eat at school or friend's houses" to keep as a constant reminder what I should and shouldn't do. This win tally will be a variation of that.

Well, I am going to make some coffee and get started in on my mountains of notes to study and review. I hope everyone has a great day!

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile