Alone at Dinner Time

I live with two roommates, one of whom is my best friend, K. She and I are always hanging out together, so she sees what I eat and don't eat most of the time. I think she is starting to get suspicious of something, because she has commented a few times lately on how little I eat, and twice now, she has greatly encouraged me to eat lunch/dinner. Once I gave in, the other time I didn't. Anyway, it makes it hard to restrict hard-core, because she doesn't see me eat breakfast on days when we don't have class, and breakfast is my biggest meal of the day. I usually have an english muffin with a small amount of butter, probably about 25 calories worth, or low-fat yogurt with 100 calories worth of granola mixed in. So then, on weekends, or days like today when we randomly had no class so we could have a study day, she hardly sees me eat. I would wait to eat my breakfast once K gets up, but I have a thing where I want to finish my breakfast by ten, because then I have the rest of the day to work it off. And K usually gets up on the weekends a little after ten.

Anyway, she and my other roommate left around 5, and I had the apartment to myself. K just got back, and it is 6:30, so it is quite logical that I have eaten dinner between when she left and when she got back. Which is awesome, because I was wondering how I was going to be able to pull off a low-cal dinner with the two of them being there. My stomach started to make grumbling noises around 3 this afternoon, and since K and I were studying, it would have been totally audible. I do not need to bring attention to my eating habits. I was drinking some pomegranate juice, so I sipped some more, but it didn't do anything to silence the beast, so I got some trail mix and a small slice of cheddar cheese. Probably around 200 calories all together. Not bad, but I didn't want to have anything to eat if I didn't need to. And I totally could have avoided food, except for the stomach thing. I knew it was going to be loud, and something needed to be done to avoid that. Really, around 1, I felt some rumbles in my stomach, and thought about what I should eat, but then Ana just came and said, "You just don't really need it. It's such a chore to think about what you should have, so just don't have anything at all." It was so wonderful, and like I said, could have gone on all afternoon, but the grumbling stomach with the roomie right across the living room makes it kind of difficult. Grrr.

But at least I got to eat super light for dinner. And I only ate to prevent the stomach grumbles from coming at 8 tonight. Hehe. I had a few spoonfuls of fat-free cottage cheese, about 40 calories, and a small amount of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Maybe 80 calories from that. Not planning on having anything else for the night. Yay!

I was up this morning to 129. I knew I would be, because yesterday one of my professors brought zucchini bread for our study group, and it was so sweet and I didn't want to seem rude by refusing a piece. Then, I had a bunch of pretzels in the afternoon on the drive with one of my friends to pick up my car from the dealership, an hour away. For some reason, I always get uber-hungry during road-trips, so I had probably two whole servings worth of pretzels. Then I hung out at her apartment for a few hours, and she cooked dinner. Cous cous, fake-chicken pattie (she is veggie), green beans sauteed in olive oil, and low-fat chocolate soymilk. Then I had a glass of wine with K when I got back to my apartment. Eek! When I weighed myself last night, I was 132, so I guess I can't be unhappy with losing 3 pounds in a night. Especially when I didn't even feel hungry going to bed. I love love love feeling hungry when I go to bed. Eight glorious hours where I will not eat, and I am already hungry before I even start. Love.

So let's hope I either have stayed at 129 or have lost a bit over the course of today by the time I weigh in tonight. I am not seeing hitting 120 by Sunday, but I will still try. It can't hurt to try!

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile

*Update 10:37pm* Ate a cookie my other roommate, T, baked this evening. Couldn't really avoid it. Both T and K were looking at me, waiting for me to take the cookie T had so thoughtfully put on a plate for me, along with two more for her and K. So I took it and ate it. And thought about how much I was going to weigh tonight after downing that. I am 129.5 lbs. Comme ci comme ca. Hopefully lower tomorrow morning.