So quickly.
My roomie, K, is having two friends from home stay this weekend to visit. And I want to be as thin as I can so they will see me and think, Whoa, look at her! Plus or minus being jealous. Is that weird? I don't even know these girls.
And I am really enjoying reading Wasted! I am identifying with a lot of the information she gives about anorexics. Which actually makes me feel excited. Oh well, but I always knew I was messed up long before this. Haha.
So I have decided to write down, everyday, my weight next to the date in my daily planner. But really small so no one can see it unless they actually are looking at it close up. Just so I know it's there. So I always have it with me, written down, as unforgiving proof. I just need to be careful that no one gets their hands on it! I kind of like knowing its written there, though, even though the number is too high right now. It will decrease. It will.
Love you, Skinnies!
~Sottile
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It's not weird at all, I think the same thing about people I've never met, I want them to see me and be like wow! And I really need to read Wasted, I've heard so many good things about it..
ReplyDeleteyea i would love to read it too! and who ist the author?
ReplyDeletethats not weird i feel that way all the time. I want people to be like wow she is stunning but also as weird as this sounds sometimes i want people to be like wow she is skinny almost sickly! lol but anyway stay strong! thin(K) thiN!
XOXO Lyndee
Everybody seems to be recommending Wasted! Next time I go to the library I'm checking it out.
ReplyDeleteThe idea of writing your weight down and carrying it with you is so brilliant. I could just look at the number anytime I wanted to eat...
Thanks for joining the SSPO Challenge with me! I know we'll keep each other going. ;-)
xoxo