Acceptable

I am 124.5lbs. as of two minutes ago. Acceptable, thus the name of my post. Hopefully, that will mean I am 123.5lbs. tomorrow morning, especially since I am hungry right now.

So, I didn't make 123lbs. this morning. Grumpy. I ate so little yesterday, too, which is why I still don't know why my scale last night before I went to bed said 125.5lbs.!!! I almost started crying. I read a bunch of everyone's most recent posts, but I was not in the mood to comment after seeing so heinous a number, so I apologize. But I was so mad, and in a state of shock. I had stuck to my plan, ended up having the broccoli for dinner, but no banana, just the coffee. To gain 1.5lbs. from just 380 cals. was not right. And the weird thing was that I looked so bloated, like pregnant bloated; one of those bloats that come from a classic binge. And I had hardly eaten all day! I was so hungry when I ate those broccoli, the plate was shaking in my hand as I was putting it in the microwave to heat up. So I knew something had to be up, with my stomach looking so distended like that. It was really weird, and it felt really gassy, too. So I went to bed, and hoped and prayed for 124lbs. to be back this morning.

I did get 124lbs. this morning, so no damage was done, except to my psyche because I am so done with 124! When I first woke up, though, I had to run to the bathroom and had the runs. After that, my stomach still looked somewhat larger than it normally does, but not hugely like the night before. Anyway, throughout the day, I was having the runs, but my stomach felt normal, and I was hungry. I was so confused. I sort-of lied to my roomies and said my stomach was hurting, so I was only going to have saltine crackers and ginger ale, and not eat dinner. It wasn't totally the truth, because my actual stomach felt fine, and I could have eaten. I felt legitimately hungry. However, something in my digestive tract was not right, so I thought the best decision would be to go easy on it. I had the cutest little can of ginger ale, one of those 8oz. cans which only had 80 cals, and then seven saltines, which was 84 cals. So 164 cals all together for the evening. Could have been worse. I probably had 500 cals throughout the day in addition to that, coming from my breakfast and a banana around lunch time. So 664 cals. Acceptable.

I was just thinking about what could have caused my tummy troubles, and I am wondering if it wasn't the Splenda I put in my coffee yesterday. I can't think of anything else I ate yesterday that would have caused symptoms like that. Adding to my suspicions is the fact that I haven't had Splenda in a good year, at least. I usually avoid artificial sweeteners, and just use either the tiniest amount of sugar, or just not add any at all. However, I love my Dunkin' Donuts coffee, when I actually have it, with the Splenda in it. It is the only way I've ever had it, and I love it. So this is a bit troubling that my insides reacted to the Splenda this way, potentially.

Tomorrow morning is our club field trip that I went to said Dunkin' Donuts for yesterday to order the doughnuts and coffee for everyone. I am not going to have a doughnut; I will bring my usual breakfast for myself. Also, tomorrow I am going to see the midnight showing of Alice in Wonderland with my friends - in 3-D!! I am super excited for this. I am going to be dead-tired, because I have to wake up at 5:30ish tomorrow morning for this club trip, and then the movie will probably go until 3am. And I am most definitely not a night person. I typically go to bed at 10:30pm most nights, and even that is later than I like, but you lovely ladies keep me awake reading your blog posts ;) So, loooong day tomorrow, but it will be so worth it!

I am off to read a few more blogs, and then go to bed. I still feel a bit weird, so I might end up making a middle of the night trip to the bathroom, but that can only help my weight tomorrow morning :) Gross, but so true!

Love you, Skinnies!

~Sottile