This weekend was HORRIBLE!!!! I don't even want to go into details, but this morning when I woke up and weighed, I was 124.5lbs. WHAT??? I HATE how everyone equates holidays with eating large volumes of food. It's absolutely disgusting, but I can't seem to escape it. I hate how I look; I feel so fat and bloated.
All I can say is that tomorrow, I am buckling down. Temperatures are starting to rise here, and I in no way feel ready to don a tight-fitting t-shirt without anything over it, but I yearn to wear a tight-fitting t-shirt without layering something over. I felt like I was really getting somewhere the two weeks ago right before I left for London, when I was 119lbs. I even remember typing "I will never let myself get into the 120s again." Ha. How awesome am I? NOT. Ugh. Huge, epic fail.
At least this hatred of myself will spur me on to really attack my weight with a vengeance. I want to be out of the 120s by this Sunday. Tomorrow I will have my regular yogurt with granola for breakfast, and probably half a hummus and tomato sandwich for lunch, and then that will be it. We have a dinner lecture tomorrow, but luckily for me it is Thai food, and I hate Thai food. And everyone knows it, so no one will push me to have any. And then I just won't eat when I come home either.
I will make you girls proud of me again. I am sorry I've failed you all. Tomorrow is a new day, though, and I can only look forward. Stay tuned for a victory post tomorrow about how well I've done :)
Love you, Skinnies!
~Sottile
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Holiday weight gain is temporary. It's all shit and bloat. We need to drink tons of water, restrict and take our laxies. It will come right off.
ReplyDeletexoxo zen
Don't worry, same happened to me. It'll come off super fast, I promise. I'm a little further away from it than you, but I'm gonna adopt your goal of being out of the 120's by sunday as well. Fingers crossed!
ReplyDeletethink thin, stay strong:) xo
Oh it will come off super fast because its mostly temporary holiday weight and bloat! Its true! You're going to be fine and even lower than when you went to London, and in no time! I really believe that. You didn't fail us, just had a little bump in the road, which we all have quite often. This week of course you will kick it into high gear because you have the most amazing self control of any of us. Its true.
ReplyDeleteWe believe in you. Don't put more pressure on yourself than necessary, because the weight is going to fly off. I'm already excited for you! 118, 117, 116, HERE YOU COME!!!
You haven't failed us at all dear, you're going to lose that measly weight in no time =) Like everyone's said, it's only holiday bloating! Good luck with tomorrow [:
ReplyDeletexoxo
we all went there .. i gained 4 pounds !! 4 POUNDS .. and i'm not even as skinny as you so .. blah hate holidays .. they ruin everything!
ReplyDeletedamn the easter bunny! x
ReplyDeleteomg i completely get what you mean about not being able to wear a tee shirt without cover-ups. i swear i have like 100 flannel shirts/button up tunics/jackets just for that purpose and it gets really tiresome after a while. and dont get me started on the tank tops that i have to layer underneath just to hide my fat stomach! dont worry though , you are so freaking strong i know you'll be back below 120 in no time.
ReplyDeletestay strong
meg