Before I start, Ever. asked people who can read her blog to re-post her new URL, since I guess when she had to change it, a bunch of her followers couldn't get the new URL, and her blog wouldn't show up in their dashboards. So, anyone, for people who had followed Ever. and couldn't find her blog after the URL problems, or for anyone looking for a new blog to follow, there you go!
Anyway, I woke up this morning 122.5lbs.!! That's down 1.5lbs. from yesterday morning :) I was SO hungry when I woke up too. For breakfast, I had my usual yogurt and granola, and lunch was a whole tomato and hummus sandwich, with about 10-15 grapes. As with yesterday, I had only planned on eating half the sandwich, but by the time noon rolled around, I was so hungry, and we had a lab this afternoon where we were doing blood draws, intramuscular and IV injections, and eye ointment administration in horses. If anyone has not worked with or been around horses, they are wonderful creatures, but will freak out at the drop of a hat. They are SO high strung! I definitely wanted to be on top of my game for the lab, and being weak and faint would not be a good idea around those guys.
Also, as with yesterday, I got comments in the student lounge at lunch, this time from two different friends, S and JC. I sat down at a table in the lounge and pulled out my phone to check my email, just like yesterday, and I hadn't been sitting for more than half a minute. S says to me "Not eating today?" I said back "No, I am eating, just not currently." Really? Like, really. Not even a whole minute. Give a girl a break! Then JC commented on the size of my sandwich. "Look at that tiny little sandwich!" is what he yelled for the whole lounge to hear. I just responded "Yep." Yes, the bread is smaller than an average size piece, but whatever. Last time I checked, there was not an official bread police or anything. Let me eat the bread I want to eat. I am glad he just let it go, though. He is one of those people who might have taken it further. Thank god he didn't, because I know I would have turned bright red.
Then, another one of my friends, D, decided that it would be a great idea for everyone to meet at this ice cream place in town and then go to her house to watch America's Next Top Model. Ironic, much? Anyway, I really didn't want to get ice cream, but I got pressured into going by like ten of my friends, so I caved and gave in. I didn't eat anything past lunch, so I could save calories, and let me tell you, I was worried about driving when it came time to meet everyone. I was so faint, and I was seeing stars in front of my eyes, and I was SO shaky. I don't know why I have been so hungry these past two days! It would be so awesome if I was hyperthyroid or something. Haha!
Anyway, I split this cupcake sundae thing with one of my friends. They take a warm chocolate cupcake (without frosting) and a scoop of your choice of ice cream on top, and top it with hot fudge, whipped cream, and a cherry. I tried to get my friend to eat more than half of it by getting into conversations with other friends, and not paying attention to my half, but she so kindly saved me exactly half, and by that time, I was the last one eating, so everyone was basically watching me finish it. So I couldn't throw it out. I swear, even though the description of that sundae said it was for two people, it could easily have been for four. My poor stomach felt so stretched after finishing it!
I hope I didn't mess things up too badly. Hopefully I will maintain 122.5lbs. tomorrow morning. Ugh. Also, I think I might go to Walmart and check out their scales. I am beginning to not trust the one K bought at the beginning of this school year in September. Sometimes I will get on and it will tell me one thing, and then I will get off and get back on, and I am a pound higher or lower. Then sometimes, I will get on, and it will read out my weight, but then blink and say "BAL" on it, which I am assuming means balance. I don't know if this is an error message or something, or if the scale needs to be re-balanced, but I don't have the instructions for it, and K did pay like only ten dollars for it or something, so it might be "You get what you pay for". That scale also only measures in 0.5lb. increments, and I would love one that would do at least 0.2. It will be a little tricky, though, if I buy a new scale. I will be able to use it no problem in the morning, because K wakes up a good 45 minutes after I do on school days, and a good three to four hours after I do on weekends. But at night, it will be a little more interesting to try to weigh myself with a new scale. I just don't want to buy a new scale and put it in the bathroom, because K doesn't even think I use the scale in there, and I don't want her getting any more suspicious than she already is. It would look pretty sketchy if I replaced the old scale/put a second scale in the bathroom, or if she caught me coming of the bathroom at night with a scale in my hands. Hmmm. I will have to think about this one.
There is this pair of jeans from Abercrombie that I have my eye on, and I am thinking I will buy them, but not allow myself to wear them until I weight 115lbs. Motivation!
Love you, Skinnies!
~Sottile
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i know exactly what you mean about the scale thing. i wanted to get one earlier on in the year because my mom's is in increments of .5, but that didn't work out too well, so i didn't get it.
ReplyDeletei'm sorry about the sundae thing... but if it makes you feel any better, i binged on cake tonight. ugh. tomorrow i WILL be doing MUCH better. that is a fact. i'm not going to eat until right before dance practice.
congrats on the weight though! you're doing so good! =] hang in there. =]
So, you are doing fine. One ice cream will not kill you in the great scheme of things, not when you were feeling that weak. Your body was ready for it, ready to use it as energy right then.
ReplyDeleteYou will be back in the teens in no time flat. I know it prb doesn't feel that way, but seriously, a couple days for a couple lbs is really fast weight loss.
As far as you being extra hungry, I always feel the hungriest right after I have a spike in my intake, accidental or intentional.
I have always wanted to ask you what your name means... jw. You don't have to tell if that's too personal a question.
Stay the course! You're going to be teeny-tiny in no time! I am so excited for you!
Thanks so much for mentioning me! =)
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about it, you definitely won't gain on one ice cream, considering you ate great the rest of the day. I absolutely hate when my friends try to pressure me to eat, like screw off please and eat all that food that's in front of YOU.
The jeans sound like great motivation, and a new scale is always a good idea! .2 increments and stuff are sooo much nicer than the others, at least you already have a digital though haha.
Take care [:
xoxo
that hummus sandwich souns good .. what kind of hummus do you use? so it's just hummus and tomatoe slices?
ReplyDeleteand how many calories does the granla say it has in 100gr on the back of your pack? mine has so much so i was just wondering .. and how much do you eat off it? 1dl?
your doing so great :D i just finished my esteregg :'( boo!! but it's good that i don't have any to eat tomorrow then :D
that sundae sounds really good. ugh.
ReplyDeleteI had a terrible experience watching americas next top model last night. I turned it on with my husband,he was napping when it started, but he woke up and was watching with me. I'm so insecure about my body, and we were laying beside each other, and when they were wearing lingerie, I was like "I bet he's getting turned on seeing these skinny mini models and I bet he wishes I were skinny, too.." and then I stopped breathing for a second, and I could feel his heart beating and I said, all snappy "is there a reason your heart is beating so fast?" and he said, "what? my heart isnt beating fast?" and I got up and walked to the bathroom and he turned it off, and he could tell I was really upset and he just didnt know what he did! And I went and took a breather in our bedroom, and I started crying because I just want to be skinny! :( so my husband came in to lay down with me, and as we were spooning I realized his heart hadnt been beating fast- thats just how his heart beats. and I felt like a jerk.
come up with some plausible excuses for lunch like it makes you sleep so your not really a lunch person you and (now you laugh as you say it) you had a MASSIVE BREAKFAST and (teehee insert anoter laugh) as "so gna eat half the kitchen when you get home"
ReplyDeleteworks for me i get away with and apple its great
could say a doctor advised you cut down gluten hence the small bread (and would also get you outta cupcakes !)
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You could say the scale crapped out, and I have a Sunbeam scale from Wal-Mart, that weighs in .2 increments. Around $15-$20 I think it was, but I got it a couple years ago.
ReplyDeleteMy scale weighs in .2 increments, it measures body fat percentage, and if I lean to the left a bit I can cheat a couple ounces out of it. That made it worth every penny.
ReplyDeletexoxo zen