We are in the midst of a classic Noreaster. And we are supposed to get around a foot more snow tonight. Yay! I love snow :) Some of my classmates hate it, but back home, my family lives in the mountains on this dirt road, so this is nothing. I have gotten out of and driven in much worse. We already have one class canceled tomorrow, and potentially another one. I did not prepare my case work-up for the second class, so if it isn't canceled, then oh well. I will hide in the back of the room and try to be inconspicuous so I don't get called on. If that second class is canceled, no way am I going to my third class in the afternoon. However, I still have to go the lunch lecture, so that stinks. I am not going to eat much more than some veggies, maybe a few pieces of chicken. No noodles, no rice. Noodles and rice are little devils waiting to make it to my stomach and have an all-expense paid vacation for a few days. Sorry, you forgot your passport.
Anyway, I weighed in at a solid 125lbs. this evening. I made it to 124lbs. this morning! I was so happy!! I had planned not to eat lunch today, but by the time noon rolled around, I was so hungry, and my stomach was starting to growl pretty audibly. I had bagel chips and bell pepper slices with me, so I started eating those. Then my friend offered me Raisinets, which I couldn't resist, because I am weak. I don't know how many of those I had, but I finished the bag of bagel chips, which was about half-full. It had six servings in it, 130 cals per serving, so if I had three servings, that is 390 cals. Then the bell peppers were about 25 cals. And who knows with the Raisinets. The only good thing about all of it was that I was finished eating at 2pm, so I had the rest of the day to try to fix things. I decided then and there that I wouldn't be eating dinner. Still, I was so angry at myself for having lost my focus. Grrr.
So when I came home from school at 5, I just made myself busy again, and was able to skip out on dinner undetected. I am now feeling grumblies again since I haven't eaten since 2. Good. Hunger means I am doing my job. I was still petrified when I got on the scale, but I could accept 125lbs. It means I will most likely be 124lbs. again tomorrow.
Tomorrow night, my skinny friend W and I are having a movie night at her apartment. Since I am going to be eating lunch tomorrow, I am not going to eat dinner. If the roomies ask, I will say I am eating over at W's. I am positive we will not have anything to eat at W's, but in the off chance she does ask if I want something, or if her roomie makes something and asks if I want any, I will say I already ate dinner. It's such a perfect plan!
Love you, Skinnies!
~Sottile
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Oh! Sounds like fun!
ReplyDeleteYou are doing so well!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you understand my pain about the grad school thing. I'm still in knots about it. I should know next week or the week after, but I still check my email and snail mail obsessively in hopes that I hear something early. This is the worst most horrible anxiety I have ever experienced. Thanks for your encouragement.
Don't worry too much about losing focus today - you always do so well! I'm sure you'll have no problem at all tomorrow, just make sure you do stay well away from the noodles and rice! Also, maybe drink some diet soda in the evening so that even if there is food there, you won't be tempted at all :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck! Enjoy the snow, x